The darkness was with me when I went out last Friday. It was so easy. I knew what Crowley and La Vey must have have felt. I had changed suppliers and it felt good. Good but souless, for I loved someone else still and I had no idea where they were.But everyone I spoke to responded to me as I would have wished. However, though I walked in The Dark Power of the Goat I felt total sadness. Three years of change but no sadistic pathetic abuse could remove my feelings. Forever in this half light. Oh desire, the ashes and the fire etc. All praise to the Goat. Several issues, my brother may need help and also I still love someone who was happy to try to destroy me, yet no one matches up to him. What should I do?

In recent days past I have kept in my mind the words of Anton LaVey from 'The Satanic Bible' and 'The Satanic Witch'. I keep copies of both near me at all times. It is sound common sense.

To be honest, Anton LayVey could have been a psychologist. It's not about majick, or good, or evil its just plain common sense for everyday living. It's not scary. It's profound good stuff. It doesn't tell you what you should believe, just makes suggestions.

I don't follow all of it I freely admit. There is some stuff in it I don't like but I pick out the relevant bits for myself. It has helped me a great deal. When I have felt frightened or lost I have thought of the sound common sense of these Books and they have kept me going. Sometimes I have strayed off the Path or thought things too bad even to encompass Black Gas light beliefs. But I have always found encouragement to keep trying and try try again here. I personally have never found anything quite so inspirational.

Hello from the Gaslight. One always feel that one has to turn back to the world view of the Goat, no matter how far off the mark, on occasion, one may stray. The Goat has a sensibility not shown by other presentations, there is a truthfulness there, a non hypocritical solidarity. It is true that once you show any interest in this philosophy it will alter you perception of other people and also your place in life. The Goat philosopy shows you how to have faith in yourself and utilise your own dormant earth power, feelings and beliefs.

All hail to the Gaslight Black.

In the year since I started writing this blog, I would say the philosophy of the Goat helped me enormously. I am not by nature a mean person and find it incredibly hard to be selfish. I sometimes get a perverse enjoyment from doing things for other people, but now I understand that this is not permissable unless it helps me too. I suppose I've gone a bit soft again in certain areas and have allowed some people to use me. I am endeavouring to put a stop to this but I am fighting my nature so at the moment a bit of an internal struggle is going on. The trouble is, I can see beauty even in dark mean streets. I can love the black stone, shiny rain on a dark wet night.

I am having a terrible battle with myself at the moment because I have become nocturnal. I love the night. Yesterday as it is now we stayed up all night, went to the supermarket first thing in the morning then drank brandies whilst getting ready for bed at about 10.00 am. Even the aqueous daylight seemed pleasant then, the brandy glass by the shower door glowing a pleasant warm amber, the cigarette packet full with the cigarettes deliberately denied the previous day (as I restrict how many I smoke!). The morning was a glowing cool green as I leisurely downed another glowing brandy and smoked another cigarette before finally going to bed, my jobs completed, ready to awake to the soft golden glowing lamp in the majestic full body of darkness. What happiness and bliss! How truly fulfilling that which is the cult of the dark...to awake once more.

In the Goat there is much power, more than anyone could ever believe or dream. This may be but one religion of many, but it is a religion worth considering. It is not the evil religion that many believe. It gives choices and the ability to feel true love which is unfettered by moral constraints.

Here and now in the Goat I forgive one person that I loved once. In darkness I forgive them. Not in weakness but in strength and the knowledge of choice I forgive them absolutely everything. In dark power I forgive them.  In the blackness of night I forgive them. For whatever they attempted to do to me I forgive them. I choose to forgive them in the informative choices given by the Great Goat. Not in foolishness, but in power I forgive the person completely. I love them darkness and will do so forever. I do not request that the person is good, kind or love me back in any way. However I would ask that they consider their true allegiances. I will be waiting...

All hail to the Goat, hail to the Black Gaslight.

The Black Gaslight has always been a respectful and dedicated site. Due to the fact that it was once linked to another site in early 2006, there may be a handful of undesirable persons who may read it. However the Black Gaslight can never be changed. The Black Gaslight is a left hand path site but aims to show that this is not at all 'bad' and gives examples of so called mainstream religions committing evil if you should care to scroll back to the early part of 2006.

It is good to see that there are help organisations appearing for the benefit of the dark community. It is high time our rights were respected as individuals to practice our beliefs openly. Religion is a very interesting thing. They say faith can move mountains but it is the strength of the will, I think in the end, that matters most.

Religions are classified in different ways. I will describe a few of them.

Satanism is known as a Dualist religion dividng the universe in to two concepts of good and evil, always at war with each other. However since the mind of man can be very flawed, the concept of what is good and what is evil can differ very greatly from individual to individual or sect to sect.

Exclusivist religions do not allow a person to have any other faith or beliefs. The Monotheistic religion is a belief system that has one major deity and no others. Pantheistic religions believe that everything is a deity and everything is worthy of worship. The Atheistic religion has no deities. It has no belief in deity personalities but will in some cases conceed unseen forces.

In a Polytheistic religion there is more than one deity.

What many religions do is teach people to prepare for a spiritual life and many rantings and tirades can be heard on this subject. The strange thing is that spirits and ghosts and all manner of others from the Astral Planes desperately want a physical body, so in actual fact looking after oneself physically and protecting oneself is just as important as the rest, so in this knowledge, the Satanist belief would seem entirely sensible. However as nothing is closed to the open mind, one has to come to these beliefs of their own choice.

A site I found by chance only yesterday, acknowledges that people from the dark community are human beings who have trials and tribulations just like members of other religious groups. They are as normal or abnormal as anyone else is and are really just like everyone else.

I've thought of a few ideas in all seriousness, 'Satanists and Shamens against Stalkers' (SSS) and Occultists Against Eavesdroppers (OAE), also 'Witches Against War'.

Interestingly enough Adolf Hitler had a team of occultists during World War II. Dion Fortune and her group working from Bayswater in London expended much time and energy battling back for Britain.

Some people can carry themselves along through life whilst others wish to take a deeper look at the meaning of being here. Someone once said to me a really funny thing - We are all here, because we are not all there. Common sense and logic prevails of course.

The Goat has shown me the way home. I got a bit lost for a period of time but I believe that I was shown the purity of truth for me at any rate. When you feel you have nothing and feel you have lost almost everything it is suprising how your morals run. Your perceptions change within your mind. What was good and what was bad runs together like a bad watercolour. You stare from your window on to the road. You see the cars and the hills in the distance. You know that somewhere out there your destiny lies. You pick up your scattered conciousness, you draw in your feelers, your Familiars you pull close to you for the hibernation of sweet scented dreams on lavendar pillows in country cottages down weary lanes which you conjour up on the astral planes.

In reality the dirty road is waiting outside and poor bricks are your only guide. Yet you feel the dark power, the strength and support of the hour and you pick up your strengthened soul from the filthy puddle that tried to make a hole in the fabric of your feelings. And the darkness is clean and pure and cleanses every pore of that mean street completely. Instead of degredation, you feel the refeshing cleansing of the dark dawn, the love of the darkness hidden in the asphalt, the gifts of the prayers, the secret hiddden meanings the love support and kindness that rides on the night. All hail to the Gaslight!

Hello from the Black Gaslight. I was temporarily sidetracked. However I have now returned fully to the beautiful dark power of the Black Gaslight. The comfort and security of the dark cannot be surpassed by anything or anyone. The dark holds a dusky divinity that cannot be surpassed, it is always there, always waiting to cure and restore those who need it. It is the phoenix dark quality that guides those who need it back to the path of self respect and self belief.

There is much more untapped, unused power in the physical self than is perhaps at first apparent. Because we are always taught to be spiritual, even just reading 'New Age' magazines, we tend to overlook just what we have and what we can do 'here as we stand'. This is where the Goat Earth philosophy comes in to its own. Unless you have actually tried to make something out of seemingly nothing then you will not understand what I am talking about. You may feel you are nothing. It is not for me to use my essence to make you feel better. Feeling better is only that - a feeling.

Everything you need to succeed you have already. Most people ignore what they have physically in themselves and abuse it. If they are suffering depression they are waiting 'until they feel better', if they are fat they are waiting 'until I lose weight' There are lots of ifs.

The Goat is the power of the now. Use it or lose it. You will not feel better, fitter or happier waiting. Waiting is wasting precious time. You can have what you want now. However, you are required to go and get it yourself. In the Goat you are human, not wrong. You may be fetish and there is always someone who wants your fetish (make no mistake but you have to go and get them). You may be a freak but someone out there will love your freak, want you and like you for it. There is more power in the now than in the National Grid power station. In the Goat you are loved, desired and powerful.

We are priviledged to feel bright. The undertow of the dark throws back such power and strength. It is both comforting and strong. Some people spend so much time being out of this world that they seem to forget what is latent within their own selves as they are right now. So many people want to be something else that they forget how much power they have right now as they stand.

One thing I have been doing lately angers me greatly. I have been helping out a man who runs a dating agency. I have phoned a number of people who have enquired about the agency for him. Most of the people I have phoned have been reasonably wealthy and stable - home and car owners in a good financial position or with well paid jobs living in socio-economic classifications from A to C1.

So what is wrong with these fine, confident business ladies? It's their age! The poor and yes I have to say poor (I'm afraid I can't help it) women think that no one will want to be their lover/partner. They don't want friends, they want lovers who want to love them. And all their confidence in this department has crumbled. They sit in their ivory towers, with their holidays and outings and fancy cars and executive jobs and feel absolute rubbish in their psyche just because they are older models, classic cars,the classy chassis of humanity! I talk to them and I feel for them and then I feel very angry. All their money cannot buy them the confidence of love and sex, not sex but love combined with sex. They hurt, they are afraid like baby deer in a deep forest. 'They will not want me', they say 'They will want younger women'. For all their capability, in that department they are both innocent and hopeless. They crave attention. They yearn for a man to be interested in them. I encourage them over the phone and shake with fury at a society that made them this way. It is not one woman, it is many. There is also the odd man who also has lost his confidence. It is not only women, but it is mainly women.

There was a debate on BBC Radio 4's 'Woman's Hour' this morning about certain daily papers being pornographic. Mentioned were The Sport, Daily Star and not as heavy the well known Sun. Apparently when men are shown half naked on billboards there is an outcry of complaints from guess who? Men of course! Then their are the world cup babes - Keep out of the Loos Vicky and Sock it to em Cheryl! Shown more on the TV during the England Matches than the actual players! As the world cup club babes parade the 50 something woman, the dating agency maybe, act tough, goes on holiday to the Bahamas or wherever, takes part in plays, attends committee meetings, sees friends and feels rejected by men for love. A reject flesh pot despite films like Calendar Girls. One lady who was straight was seriously considering looking for women instead to love her and need her, but I pointed out it would still be the same as being with a man, disagreements, feelings etc.

Why is this mentioned on the black gaslight? Well because as my mother used to say 'All cats are grey at night'. Truth is ladies, in the dark it really doesn't matter. Turn off the lights and you are the only sex pot Diva that really matters. In my experience beauty doesn't necessarily give you a good time. Many of the men who lust after little flesh pots will not be getting the good time they will have you believe. My mother used to say that the most sexual man was the one who sat at a desk all day conserving his energy. He may be the little clerk pen pusher or computer tapper in glasses. She said that the hunky body builders with rippling muscles or the building site worker type may look sexual but was not necessarily so. I know this is true. Be a grey cat at night ladies, walk in the dark power of the gaslight. Have respect ladies and however many knock backs you have get up and do it again. You owe it to your own self in this world.

Tonight we burn dark and low. Some of our feeder sites from Communigate have been removed. It seems that certain figures at Communigate cannot stand the impact of our sites and would try to harm them. The power of the Black Gaslight shall overcome them. The flame burns with the true power of the black light.

Sex - the obsession of millions/natural function. How would you feel if you could have mind blowing orgasms without touching yourself or without the help of anyone else? How liberated and satisfied would you feel if you could have hard-core sex without any physical touch to your sensitive areas, or without any imagining of sexual rituals? What is you could orgasm while on the bus? Would you call it spirit sex or personal control? I am writing a book on this currently. Believe me, it is quite a phenomena.

Because the Society of the Black Gaslight intends to make itself public, to protect ourselves from misconception we include a link to a British Act of Parliament which protects even Satanic values that are extremely misunderstood.

Satanism is a very misunderstood religion, which tends to be the dumping ground for all perceived wrongs. Prove who caused good and who caused evil? Surely it is mankind all the time. What about the time before the Ice Age? What about original man? What about the burial that occured before the Ice Age in a cave - the man with an Ochre coloured shell necklace? Who was the god of the dinosaurs? Who was god when creatures such as the brachiosaurus lived? Where was the good and evil then? Who was their god? Think about it.

see Racial and Religious Hatred Act 2006

I just have to say I really love the 2006 Eurovision Song Contest winner entiltled 'Hard Rock Hallelujah' from Finnish band, Lordi. I can't really say as a rule that I'm anybody's fan. I don't go for hero worship of bands or actors, I never have. I think you have to act like a star yourself everyday, believe in your own personal abilities to create, not worship others unless you genuinely enjoy the entertainment they give you. However, all that said, I really, really like this track, it is very well worth a listen and yes, I have to say it is rather brilliant and a definite deserved winner - hence being mentioned by the Black Gaslight. Yes really good.

see 'Hard Rock Hallelujah'

What is a confession. Confession is supposed to be good for the soul, but is it really just a transference of perceived guilt? Some people after all, just love to be guilty, but when it all gets a bit too much, hey tell someone relieve it in the the host like they are an emotional toilet, then you must be good again,right? Well, in truth that is up to the individual. Life is all in the mind.

Anyway here we get on to the true meaning of love. Now 'Love' is a much publicised 'must have' for many a nation. What though if you don't actually care if someone loves you or not? Or if anyone loves you or not?Have you surpassed 'love' in the scheme of things? Could love be evil in some scenarios?The answer is 'Yes' love can be very evil.

Take me, A neighbour once pretended to be sexually attracted to me. He kissed my hand, fussed me up and talked to me. I fell in love with him. The neighbour did unspeakably cruel things to me. I continued to love him in abject purity of love. I loved him so much that the sadistic, evil things he did made no difference. Amor Omina Vinct-Love conquers all. But I got fed up with this groveling love, to be repaid only in cruelty and sadism from him and his friends. I was getting nothing back for my feelings except sadism.

Since I prefer to be the dominatrix of the piece, I was getting no fun at all. So I officially give everything he gave me back to him. I return every action, thought and feeling he had for me back to him. I return it on the ether, I return it in the air. I return it on the wings of Mercury it is only fair. Everything he did thought and caused to me I now send him it all back. I want him no more, not now, not forever, not never, not his key, this is my will so mote it be.

I had a 'meeting of minds', that is, I joined with another medium or psychic to give extra power. The room always went freezing cold. My psychic partner was in London so it was a phone connection however it was an interesting experience. There are some things though. Yes, I saw the candles again and smelled the incense. It always happens. There is a lighted pool of candles set in thick incense. I can always see them. They come from another time. What can I do? Once my then partner modelled the Montague Summers (see the Peter Underwood book) anti-vampire talisman from the book, my son fell on some wooden model stakes that afternoon at school and got a stake mark on his back. I quickly threw away the model anti vampire talisman, what was wrong with us?

Some years later I developed panic disorder. One thing was I hated crosses and churches and had to go to the other side of the road rather than go past one. I eventually made myself be able to wear crosses again and walk past churches, but what was wrong with me? Crosses always seemed unlucky for us. When we wore them we got trouble. The Hand of Fatima, a talisman that protected my father through out the second world war produced the same problem. They seemed to work in reverse. We got bad luck if we wore them. Were we freaks? Who knows, but you have to go with the flow don't you? Or do you? I'm not sure really.

Perhaps you would think that there is no place for the Black Gaslight at Easter. However, as we believe that the way forward and true key to being an accepted religion and/or philosophy is tolerance of other belief systems. Easter is named after the Goddess of Rebirth, Eostre. That may greatly surprise some people but it is true. Breaking out from the egg is a symbol of rebirth, of being renewed. However you interpret that and in whatever way, it can only be good for you.

I have been looking for a goat necklace. The symbol I thought of was a benign goat necklace, a pleasant picture issuing no threat in appearance. Why is that? Because we need to show that there is no threat, that if someone is evil they are evil no matter what religion they choose to follow and that they have to accept responsibility for that evil themselves. It is the person that is evil and they cannot hide behind any Deity for their behaviour in any way. Yet they do, don't they? We deserve acceptance as a mainstream religion with full respect to the Goat. Not by fear, or shame, or sensationalism, but by showing that the Goat is well worth following as a sensible option to other religions.

The Sacred Order of the Black Gaslight

The 13 Principles of expanded belief are as follows:

1. To care really matters. Care only in darkness never in light.

2. Love is very important. Love is encompassing of true dark knowledge.

3. True strength lies in removing true weakness.

4. Use the Inner Space of unique true perception to remove enemies.

5. You will know when you have found profound truth.

6. Sacred and Profane strength will drive away blight and stupidity.

7. What is meant to be will get there in the end, but if you really need to change the course of the river, then do so and do not feel guilt.

8. Do not love the neighbour who cannot love you.

9. Only give trust to those who pass your personal test to deserve it.

10. There are many 'snakes in the grass' so walk on concrete or tarmac instead unless you can avoid the snakes.

11. Stick to your goals, they give you self respect and meaning.

12. Respect others, unless they give you genuine cause not to. This saves you time and energy in your infinity of being.

13. Always love and believe in yourself, but totally respect, without reservation the Dark Force of Truth and Infinity.

These are the first lores of the Order of the Black Gaslight.

Hello. In the darkness there is always light. Lucifer means light. So you will always have the necessary light in the dark. When in deep water become a diver. Consider the uses of adversity. This week I have smoked out enemies like smoked kippers and smoked salmon. I have turned the tables, so to speak. They are now on the back foot. I am doing as I said I would, chasing them like the mangey curs that they are. I can only say that is because I found the good sense of The Black Gaslight. Yet maybe I should ignore them still. I have received so much good sense since turning to the Path of The Black Gaslight, the left hand path of truth and the beauty of real enlightenment, truth and wisdom.