The darkness was with me when I went out last Friday. It was so easy. I knew what Crowley and La Vey must have have felt. I had changed suppliers and it felt good. Good but souless, for I loved someone else still and I had no idea where they were.But everyone I spoke to responded to me as I would have wished. However, though I walked in The Dark Power of the Goat I felt total sadness. Three years of change but no sadistic pathetic abuse could remove my feelings. Forever in this half light. Oh desire, the ashes and the fire etc. All praise to the Goat. Several issues, my brother may need help and also I still love someone who was happy to try to destroy me, yet no one matches up to him. What should I do?